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Bethenny Frankel’s new season of “Bethenny Ever After” came back tonight and I loved every minute of it.  This photo is from her recent Elle shoot.  (by the way, did I ever tell you that I did a summer internship at Elle Magazine and assisted styling a photo shoot with Cindy Crawford?!!?)  anyway…back to Bethenny…this shot of her is sexy cool.  I love her and I love her show.  I met Bethenny last year when I went to her book signing of “A Place of Yes” – you can read that post here.  I am so happy for her and yes, she is a bit neurotic but she is real…she lets it all out and she has done everything on her own.  I loved last season when her and Jason went to the bottling plant and she got emotional when she talked about her “seed of an idea” becoming a brand.  She is determined and finally has everything she wants (husband, baby & business) and I love how she talks about the second year of marriage being harder than the first…again, keeping it real and not pretending life is always rosy {even if you are a bizzillionaire).  I also like to see that all of her friends (Lauren) and Shawn {the party planner}, Nick {the food blogger} and her assistant, Julie are all still in her life…I think she is loyal and I admire that.  Her and Jason are sweet and I love how silly they are with each other and how they love Bryn.  She does seem like she is very hard on her self and she even says that she tortures herself more than anyone else. It is sad that with all of the things she has {not just the money, etc…but the new family, friends, Bryn and Jason} that she still seems to have trouble just being grateful and struggles to move on from her past.  I have not walked in her shoes but I wish she would let go sometimes and try not to be perfect all of the time.  BUT, she is hilarious and I guess that is how she releases her {Sugar Honey Iced Tea}!

She also revealed on the Today Show that she had a miscarriage and my heart goes out to her.  Talk about relating to this quote…”That was a very emotional experience … You go through a roller coaster of emotions about it — about your age, about being a woman, about can you have another baby, about are you a failure as a partner, about what if your husband married someone younger. You go through a million different things.”  I was there through several miscarriages, a million ivf tries and ultimately found out I cannot have children.  We were very blessed to have our son Ben through a surrogate but I have felt like a failure.  I felt like we lost our savings because my body failed.  I still go through a ton of emotions about not being able to give Ben a brother or sister…it breaks my heart and always will.  My thoughts and prayers are with her and Jason and I wish them only happiness!

I guess in a way, I relate to Bethenny quite a bit.

We all feel pressure and we can’t do it all.  As a working mom, I know sometimes I feel like I don’t get to do all of the things I used to do.  I always wish I could do more.  If I could, I would travel every weekend to visit family and friends…and then some weekends I don’t want to do anything…because I am spent.  I was just excited to have a day off today and while Ben napped, I reorganized my closet .  That was a little slice of heaven for me.  I then went on to reorganize my husband, Chris’ closet, the linen closet and the bathroom drawers…yes, I’m nuts.  I need to do this to feel normal…I wonder that a therapist would say about that!  I don’t quite organize my underwear in baggies like Bethenny but I am pretty ocd.  I look forward to seeing Bethenny and Jason’s new apartment and how she decides to decorate!  I am waiting for my new family rug to come in and I want to redecorate every room now!

anyway…I hope you enjoy the new season and have fun watching like I do!  xo Cor